Hey guys. My name is Janessa Jordan. I'm 17 years old and I live in Highlands Ranch, CO (aka Wisteria Lane). Before I just lash out, I'll tell you a lil about me so you can become personally involved...

I was born in Orange County, CA. I lived there for 6 years until my parents got a divorce and we moved to Kansas. I lived in Kansas for about 9 years. When I lived there I HATED it!! I thought it was the most boring place in the world but now I realize it was the best time in my life. St. Francis, the town I call home, was populated by 1500 residents. Everyone knew your past mistakes and your present problems. However, I loved that fact. I know, it sounds weird, but I loved the fact that everyone knew me (or a skewed version of me) but I knew them too. In St. Francis I became best friends with the cutest, nicest, most fun girl you'll ever meet: Madeline Maude Knodel. Her family basically became my family. In St. Francis I also became a Christian. I love my relationship with Christ although its always a series of crests and troughs. So anyway, during the summer before my sophomore year my mom told me that we would be moving to Denver which is about 3 hours from St. Francis. I was devestated. In Sainty, I had everything. I was popular. I was on the pom squad. I was good at basketball. I had my best friend. All that was about to change. When we moved to Highlands Ranch I was scared because I was this hick country girl from Kansas. The school I attend has more students than the whole population of St. Francis. Now I realize why God had us move here because I have experienced SO MUCH!! Much more than I could have experienced in Sainty. In a way I wish I could still live there so I could be on pom and play basketball and participate in the great St. Francis tradition but now I am able to take AP classes and have such great friends and not drink on the weekends. I also met Jonathan who spurred this desire to write an online journal.

Jonathan and I dated for 6 months but the last month or so we hadn't really hung out simply because our schedules were so busy and never coincided. Well, on the day of our 6 month anniversary he tells me that he doesn't want to date anymore. I gave this boy my heart. He was my first love. Today, I talked to him and it seems like he blames me for everything.For being mean to him. For not "coming after him" after we had a fight. For making him do all the work. Well, obviously these things are not true and I will spend NO MORE TIME crying over him. I have to hate him until I stop loving him and then maybe we can become friends.

Well, If you read this whole thing, good for you and thank you for listen to me rant and rave. I swear, I'm not usually so emotional. But I've decided that I need a place where I don't have to be fake. (I yelled at Jonathan over the phone telling him I was fake and he hates me for that I think). Ok now I'm going to tell you some things about myself....

Rock Chalk Jayhawk
God bless
janess

hey Janessa!
Thanks for the link. Sara has something like this and I'd been thinking about getting something like it, so it's very fortunate that this came along. (I've been having to post on my blog at MSN spaces)
Anyway, I'm sorry to hear about you and jonathan. YOu are obviously much better off, but I"m glad that you are moving on!! Congrats on your ACT That's awesome! God Bless and I'll talk to ya later!